Sunday, May 31, 2015

5/31/15

That laser focus and desire to eat 100% clean is beginning to fade.  Today has been a rough one I overslept and we went to the movies early in the afternoon.

I've been logging everything and in the grand scheme of things I did pretty well.  Went to Planet Fitness to get my 10,000 steps in since it was raining and storming today.

I am hoping tomorrow will be a little better, but I need to brace myself if it doesn't.

5/30/15

Getting ready for heavy leg day and not feeling it. But not bad enough that I don't want to do it.just procrastinating.
15 days of on track consistent workouts and meals.
Glad I didn't skip it! Feels good to string together these workouts
Think I will turn this into a daily tracker for thoughts. I use my fitness pal app for tracking food and Fitbit for tracking exercise.
Went to my niece's birthday party in the evening.  Brought my own food and didn't touch the ice cream sundaes or beer. However, I did choose to sample my husband's cousin's new product, a habanero Margarita mix. It was spicy and didn't taste good at first, but after a few sips it grew on me.  Not a drink you could drink a lot of which is pretty perfect for me!

Monday, May 25, 2015

Sunday 5/25/15

When I started this blog it was because I wanted to keep myself accountable and not let myself continue to gain weight over the school year.
Before I became a teacher, my hobby was bodybuilding competitions.  My last competition was 2008 and I had won the novice class.  Starting my career as a teacher right after took its toll as I dedicated everything to learning and growing as a teacher.  My workouts, while I never actually quit lifting, were very inconsistent and I gained about 40 pounds over the last 7 years.  Wine became a weekly staple replacing protein shakes and I just hated who I was becoming personally.

Last week I tabulated one of the two shows I usually work each year.  Every year I am motivated by the dedication and determination of the athletes, but this year something was a little different.  I can't explain why or what, but it was like a switch flipped and I came out of a fog.
The past 10 days I have felt healthier, happier and more focused than I have in a very long time.  I know that hard times will come again and my motivation will drop, but I just can't get over how wonderful I feel right now mentally and physically.  It is almost like I have woken up to the person I really am.

The purpose of writing this blog post is that I need a place to write these things down so that when the going gets tough I can encourage myself and keep going.  I'm not sure if I will ever compete again.  Its a very big possibility.  However, even if I don't, I know that I want to continue to live this lifestyle for the rest of my life.

This past Saturday I watched my little sister compete in her first competition.  I love the fact that I inspired her and that we share the same love of working out.  Our dad is also interested in it and I have a secret dream that the three of us could compete in a show together one day.